Sam is in His Hands

Sam is continuing to have his growth hormone shots. He started off with quite a bang, but now is hardly eating anything. I will be calling his doctor in the morning as I think he is losing weight. This is so weird for Sam because he is such a good eater. I was not told that this could be an effect of the hormone, so we will see. He is also seeing the geneticist this week. If anyone has ever taken a child to a geneticist, you know that it is one of the most terrifying places to take them. They measure and discuss almost every feature on their body. You begin to think that you have bred an alien and they are trying to figure out exactly where they are from. It's not that bad, but almost. Everything is looked at and you begin to wonder if they could find something wrong with everyone. I have been doing alot of research on the internet which is not good for a Mom to do. It can scare you. I do still feel that Sam and his metabolism is not quite right. He continues to have the same symptoms that I am worried about such as sweating terribly,breathing too hard, tires out easily,extremely thirsty,etc,, I did come across another Mom's blog whose child was having very similar symptoms as Sam. Anyways, they are going through the same things we were going through with Sam when he had to have his feeding tube put in. He is only 1, but it reminded me of all the things that Sam has been through and how God has brought us through so much. He is an amazing God. As I think back of what He has done for us and brought us through, I am reassured that He is going to bring us through once again. Sometimes, my prideful heart will wonder why the Israelites ever doubted God. Didn't he continue to deliver them time after time? Yet, they doubted Him. They couldn't grasp the fact that God would get them through. They lost their hope, faith, and trust. They were probably worried about their own kids and their kids' futures. They tried to take everything into their own hands, even though God was right there. But that same worry and lack of trust kept them out of the Promised Land. That worry and fear can keep us, too, from seeing God's Word fulfilled in our own lives. Lord, help me to know that You love Sam more than I do. Help me trust you with his future and continue to remind me of his past. You have delivered Him through it all and will continue to do so. II Corinthians 1:18-20